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Hi there, I was wondering if this group was still active?

My Name's Tammy. I'm 27 years old and I have Cerebral Palsy, I use a power Wheelchair to get around. Currently single- Let's just say I've had a string of bad relationships. I am also a lesbian.

Currently looking to make new friends. Anywhere is fine, but I'm a Michigan girl.

A writer at heart, I'm also attempting to learn game design and programming.

Anything you want to know, just ask.

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"love at first sight"
a mysterious light had something in store...
eye to eye, oh the man of my dreams
overwhelms me, this passion i'm feelin
timing so right, fate at its best
our stares that don't seem to end
our hands that can't seem to let go
enamored by your beauty
youre enamored by mine...
you glowed as the people around disappeared
such a beautiful unforgettable sight
you won't escape my mind, every cell in my brain
but i won't get manic, ill try to stay sane
never happened before, a moment so rare
so short yet more powerful than any surreal
this beautiful feeling, so deep, such a gift
once in a lifetime, my life has changed
this is just the beginning, soon we'll be one
and if that's the last time, well i've already won
i'll cherish that moment, a movie in my mind
forever and ever, from start to end, and rewind
don't care if i die tonight
i found love at first sight

I love him.

First off, hello. I'm new to this community and stuff. I'm new to LJ too, just joined last night.

I feel like this is a good place to type what I'm feeling...

There's this guy. I met him at the beginning of the last school year. FRom the beggining I started getting feelings for him, which grew and grew.

For a long, long time... I just thought of it as an innocent little crush. Love was something I had saved for a different man... one who broke my heart.

Recently, well... my affection for him is bigger than it ever has him. He's just the most amazing guy I've ever met... he's so kind and gentle, not to mention generous and caring... he's extremely intelligent, too... his hair is the best shade of dark brown there ever was, and his beautiful brown eyes are like soft pools of chocolate that I ache to get into. His voice is so soft and smooth, especially when he rolls R's... his smile is so wonderful and makes me want to smile rfight back, which is a rarity for me. He hugged me once... anbd it felt so warm, so very amazing... I'm not sure how else to describe it.

I didn't want to admit it. I really didn't. But I love him.

I want... so much... just to be able to hold him and never let go. I regularly have dreams about him... like one where I actually hung on to him and refused to let go, one where I told him about some of the bad things that were happening to me and he comforted me, one where I saved him from a trio of evil witches, one where he overthrew Obama and became President... the list goes on.

I want him to put his arms around me... and I'd give nearly anything for just one more hug from him...

He knows I like him now. I finally confessed to him... not out loud, but in the form of a note. We disscussed it... along with the school counselor. Of course, I knew from the moment I developed a crush on him that a romantic relationship between me and him made flying pigs look probable. He was still really nice, as always, and said he'd be friends with me. I felt fine then... but later on I just started to cry. A lot. I was filled with all sorts of confusing emotions.

Even now... I love him. I want to be with him so much... I'm so happy when I'm around him, which seems to be the only time I'm happy anymore. I stare at him all hour for the last hour of the day... I just can't take my eyes off him.

And he's my Spanish teacher.
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i dont know what to do.... anyone have any advise??


my girlfriend broke up with me. she said she loves me more than anything but she just cant be with me because i depress her. shes deathly afraid of people finding us out and for us to be a couple together in public. i told her that even though i told my parents and closest friends about us, id still be her lover behind close doors and friends in public. weve been together for 7 months, and shes the love of my life. im 20 and shes 18. idk what to do. she wants to be friends but shes starting to feel ashamed of us together. she cant deal with the lifestyle. and i know its hard... and i try to make it easier, but she cant see herself being like that.

i know she loves me though.

it sounds just like those movies- lost and delirious and love and suicide.

i dont want my life to be like that.

.love hurts.

I did have love...and now I don't know what I have left. I wish I knew what to do, what is going to happen, why it's going to happen. Whennnnn will the day come when I find the person i'm going to be in love with forever and have a house, 2 kids, a puppy, a nice car, my dream job, and a grill. No white fence, just a grill.

I hope things work out, it's not looking too good right now. There's nothing worse than having your heart ripped out and not knowing if it'll be okay soon, or if he's gonna tear it to pieces afterall.
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Our first kiss won't be the last
Our loves too deep to end that fast
and good things come to those who have to wait
I believe it's only time that keeps us from the thing divine,
and when it's here you know I'm gonna say lay it on my lips

Valentines day tomorrow, fun huh? So I'm sat here staring at a Potato, yes. SOMEONE remembered my little Pro Potato as a gift of affection rant a couple of years ago , After some clever formulation and a brief discussion with friends at the time at how Flowers where superfical and sucked at being representations of love. We decided Potatoes where better.

I mean, Flowers have one purpose - To look preety,
Yes, its a flutter to the girls heart when the guy she loves,
Has gone to the thought and given her that Single red rose,
That single, Uniform piece of beauty - Unique in its own respect.

But it looks preety, It'll soon die.
The girl will look after it and care for it, But eventually it will
stop being preety and die and then its discarded.
That says to me

"My love for you is transitory and based solely on your appearance"

But a Potato? Well, well well.

A potato historicaly has a number of uses, from curing toothache to solving all sorts of skin conditions, You can eat them, You can make batterys out of them, Its even been known from early ages for children to cut them up to make stamps for painting.
Whats that say about your love?

"I have many ways in which I show my love for you"

Not only that but leave a potato alone and what will it do? It'll grow! Yeah, that makes it awesome thats like saying, Our love togther will grow regardless, That in its self makes it the best symbol for love there is.

But theres more, Potatoes are Ugly, but they're still awesome as I demonstrated and what does that say?

"It doesn't matter at all what you look like, I'll still love you"

That my friends is true love,

But.. Think about this, You give your valentine a potato, they'll be like 'ugh what?'
You explain, they'll laugh, they'll call you cute and they'll call you crazy.

And very few girls will ever get a potato for valentines day and that'll be special,
That will be a sacred moment between the two, A girl who's lived life had a few valentines will
of had several single/dozen/houses full of roses - The potato will be a shared moment between the
two of you, something truley special.

Now, I'm not suggesting you cover her bed in potato peel or fill her bedroom with potatos and dot them all over the house.

But, Valentines days a farce as it is, Its complete and utter bollock, You should show your love for someone throughout the year, Its expected on Valentines day, Its a given that you will or the person will be hurt, So let your 'love' extend further than a media pre-defined day.

And don't fall onto a crutch of love, Don't be cliche, be special, be romantic, be thoughtfull. Because thats what matters.

But, remember.. Still get her a rose or you'll be a dead man, (girls are superficial like that)

Lots of Love!